Would you remember something you tried so hard to forget? Would you remember the sun after is gone, would you remember the air after you don't need it anymore?
We usually tend to forget things, even if we don't try to forget them. What did you eat two days ago at 9pm? What clothes did you wear last Monday? Do you realise how reality fades? Or maybe it doesn't even fade. No one told us reality exists.
We're not able to remember the first word we said, the last smile we gave or who was the last person we talked to. But, does that really matter? In fact, it didn't to her.
She remembered what she wanted to remember.
She remembered that house. Though she liked to call it home. How the sun raised through the mountains and made strange shadows with weird shades in its walls, how the children’s laugh echoed through the street when it was time for them to get out of school, how she cooked kimchi and everyone in his neighborhood asked her for more, how she could relax on the white sofa in that oriental-occidental styled house and how much she adored it, how she could spend hours painting in the room upstairs when no one was home, how she… felt alive.
She missed those things. A change in your life, and everything you loved is gone. No more sunrises under the sky of Korea. No more shared smiles with that boy who worked in the piano shop. No more happiness.
But there are still those memories that keep you alive, that make you think everything was worth it and those house will always be in your memory. Because, again, she couldn’t forget it, and she never will.
